Sunday, September 23, 2012

because we serve a relevant God.

My God is relevant.
for the homeless i see around
for the permanent drunk who speaks to himself
for the roma people who come here and believe a better life involves living in squatters
for the lonely who may not speak french, or make sense of european bureaucracy

My God is relevant.
even when churches may not be
when people find more fulfillment in the material, than in the Lord of lords
when the christian worldview is seen as the enemy, of holding one back, or of insult to the middle east.

My God is relevant.
because he makes this world.
He knows the problems.
Nothing is too difficult for him.

My God is relevant
because this world is his.
even when this world fades away,
his Kingdom will not.

My God is relevant.
I pray to be relevant for his use
where ever I am
to belong to Him in a way that no one can mistake.

(Inspired thoughts from Paul Tilich - the relevance of the Christian Message in spite of irrelevance)

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


Thank you God for being my portion. You are more than enough for me

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
    for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
    therefore I will wait for him.”
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him,
    to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
    for the salvation of the Lord.
27 It is good for a man to bear the yoke
    while he is young.
28 Let him sit alone in silence,
    for the Lord has laid it on him.
29 Let him bury his face in the dust
    there may yet be hope.
30 Let him offer his cheek to one who would strike him,
    and let him be filled with disgrace.
31 For no one is cast off
    by the Lord forever.
32 Though he brings grief, he will show compassion,
    so great is his unfailing love.
33 For he does not willingly bring affliction
    or grief to anyone.

Lamentations 3:22-33

Sunday, September 09, 2012

“Laughter is the closest thing to the grace of God.” Karl Barth

love from Germany today! We went to a theme park today and had fun being children... Times like these I sometimes miss my siblings as they were normally my partners in crime when we went to theme parks. My brother is somewhere in the US for interviews and my sister, at home deliberating the Singapore life and enjoying hawker fare... 

The start of the weekend has been another challenge to date. I decide to document this for accountability. I need to continue to improve and do better. I have been and continue to be prone to the deepest darkest pits, most of which, I admit, self dug... Found myself again in this pit, which seems deeper and darker, when one is completely away from one's safety net. ... scary..... 

the husband and I were discussing temperaments following this outburst and we talked about bible characters that God used amongst many other things...

P:  "Which bible character do you think is as emo as I am?"
H (Husband): "Moses, he is the classical melancholic, i remember learning that in Youth group..." 
P: " really? how is he emo?"(What profound things do they learn in youth group!!!) 

we continued to talk and when we went back home, read the scene of Moses with the burning bush... 

H: Do you know the part when God talked to Moses when he was in the wilderness
P: Yes, the one where he married the woman and lived with his father in law? Where he had to be bare foot because its holy ground? 
H: Yes, you know the tabloid ( version, but let's continue to read the conversation between God and Moses (i thought its funny for that to be categorized as tabloid!) 

We continued to read about Moses's questions to God's plan and his feeling of inadequacy. How God was patient with him despite his questions. 

Need to learn. to not be scared and to stop feeling inadequate. About everything. About life, work, finances. 

Little by little one step at a time indeed.. Deep breaths!

Thursday, September 06, 2012

Pretty simple things make me happy!

Pretty collection o earrings...

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The remarkable thing about fearing God is that when you fear God you fear nothing else, whereas if you do not fear God you fear everything else. “Blessed is every one that feareth the Lord” - Oswald Chambers

Monday, September 03, 2012

it is well with my soul.

Hello from Brussels. Back home after week spent in Heidelberg, visiting libraries and being with friends. I am approaching the end of my 2nd year in school and still feel a little lost as to what I am doing. Slowly, I see glimpses of what I want to say, of what I am doing.. I was grateful to be with people I love and to be reminded that there are no accidents in who we meet, but it is important to be a blessing and to encourage each other in this journey called life.

Recently, I have been thinking of Hope. How it is very easy to lose hope, and why bother to hope. It is a lot easier to be in despair and lost but this is not the way of God's child is it. How can I be in despair if I publicly profess to be a child of God? So hope, hope because of the love of God. Hope because it provides motivation to a better tomorrow while working out today...

So easy to be in want. I shall not be in want. because my father in heaven dresses the fields in pretty lilies as well as gives food to the sparrow. I will remember that he will do that with my daily needs. I am nervous about the end of my current work arrangement and if there will be another one coming up. As I am still not legally registered in Belgium (it takes 6 months), there is no way I can find normal conventional work here...I need peace and to remember that God is in control. Yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Adjustments. I think i have been in flux for so long that I don't remember a time of 'unflux'. But I think this is good in that it teaches one about this pilgrimage called life. I think I am a little more settled with the different changes, in particular that of being a wife. At least I don't cringe when someone says "your husband" :) I didn't realise how difficult it would be. I still don't really understand why it's hard. With this being in Brussels mainly/just for "my husband", there have been painful moments where I felt worthless and house-wify. This lost of self identity have been made harder with the inability to speak french in a foreign land.

Over the weekend, I was reminded that my first identity as a child of God remains. Nothing can change that, not even fights, a new permanent person in my life, weird studies or a new country. It has been my intention to give God glory, and it cannot change now that I am struggling. I need to remember to count my blessings, to give life a chance and to not fret at the slightest of problem...

Deep breaths and remember to wait!

ps, pictures of pretty things at home that makes me happy. :)