Friday, December 31, 2010

thoughts from the man born in Hippo.. bout Love.

"Love, and do what you will. If you keep silence, do it out of love. If you cry out, do it out of love. If you refrain from punishing, do it out of love."

— St. Augustine of Hippo

"What does love look like? It has the hands to help others. It has the feet to hasten to the poor and needy. It has eyes to see misery and want. It has the ears to hear the sighs and sorrows of men. That is what love looks like."

— St. Augustine of Hippo

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

— St. Augustine of Hippo

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Trust in God...

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Thursday, December 16, 2010

Don't like to say bye

Thank God for Haagen Dazs at the airport.
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Monday, December 13, 2010

a year of transitions...

feeling early in thinking through my 2010. Looked at past entries and I think the word for this year is change. from moving home to moving continent. My family is over with me and it has been an intense period. The problem with merging worlds is that it will never be the same again... it makes it harder to strike equlibrium with increasing number of variables... heart will be turned the other way with missing their presence, the nagging, questions, and even "blurness"... :( Can a person really have 2 places that they can call home, and not feel torn all the time...

To make sense of changes without being hardened. I wonder how God and his people do it.... Something that has been making me happy is the love of my little friend. She is processing my being around more and has become more attached. Sweet but yet scary. I worry I cannot live up to the expectations and the trust bestowed.... But nevertheless very sweet. On some days, she has been the sweetest thing that has happened when everything else Deutsch feels scary and overwhelming...

There might never be a tomorrow, yesterday my father was talking about what family members say to their deceased family member lying in the coffin. What the last words sound like and how we should act on the "shoulds" before it is too late.... my thought at that time was "I should be with you when you are leaving this world".. and I worry that this is something I cannot accomplish while treading in 2 worlds... Hmm.

Discernment. I ask for HEAPS of wisdom on this... Only with that can I work through the different parts of life. No what ifs, and thinking of the better way. I need to learn contentment and see God in different parts of life. So help me God.

Monday, December 06, 2010

the otherway round...

previously, saying bye to the frog at airports was no fun.

Now, i know that saying bye to the family will also be tough.

It is always a choice...