Wednesday, August 25, 2010

a way to end my break...

A picture to remind me to do what i like to do. To not be worried about perfection but to just do it .. just because it makes me happy.

A picture to remind me that the God who made the heavens and the earth in all its glories, had time to make it beautiful... for me.

A picture to remind me that I am His beloved in this big bad world.. (ok, not big and bad but fallen) . The only thing i can do is to be me and to remember that i am loved.

Good night world and with this i end my small break and begin the final lap to my move to Deustchland... ( my dear lil sis, pls love me still?)

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Psalm 121

Psalm 121

A song of ascents.

I lift up my eyes to the hills—where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

even in my darkest night.. my life will shine for you.

Song on repeat as I try to sleep. Hopefully the Big Friendly Giant (from Roald Dahl) will be visiting tonight to send me a very good dream.

Good night world. I am thankful today for virtual friends from around the world that remind me that I am loved and not alone....

Monday, August 16, 2010

5 years...

Just crossed the 5 yr mark in my work place. I am SO PROUD OF MYSELF! haha. :) Though i am probably somebody that needs a lot of push to make a move.. But anyway. Proud of self and pats back!

Something that I have been thinking about as we go through the struggles at work, I have been thinking about this looks like in an organization.
"Love must be sincere, Hate what is evil, cling to what is good."  Romans 12:9
Perhaps working in a Christian NGO whose aim is in the welfare of Children makes the expectations to love higher and with that, the realities of failure. With restructuring, decision making, etc; how is one supposed to love? With sincerity? Difficult to hate the evil and love the person... and with all that to be sincere.

Many thoughts, many struggles. I want to love.... hope to have wisdom on what this means.

Happy 5 yrs of working :)

Monday, August 09, 2010

My Singapore My Home

It's Singapore's Birthday... Watching the National Day Parade with my dad. Having fun.. :) This reminds me of how it was like when I was young, sitting down together as a family watching the parade...

Hehe. I think, with my travels around... I am more grateful to my little country. It has provided me with opportunities that I would not otherwise have... hehe. I remember "hating" NJ's National day fanfare... i think people need to appreciate for themselves the beauty of our country, being "forced" to learn National Education is not going to make me Patriotic... :) Many more thoughts but Happy Birthday Singapore.

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

things working out...

Little by little one step at a time.. i think they are! woot! off to the embassy tomorrow again! :)

Sunday, August 01, 2010

the best gift...

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.     Matthew 13:45-46
A few years ago, while I was visiting a church during my travel, there was a pastor who was giving a sermon on this with a Children's bible.. she challenged us to think about whether we did indeed view God as something that is worth everything else...

Yesterday, I assisted in an interview and the candidate was one who would have a significant paycut if she decided to take up the job. She talked about praying about it and deciding to continue with the recruitment process since every good thing has a price. And if believed that this was from God, there would be a price tag involved...

A cost attached to everything. Today I felt like I came into contact again with this cost, abeit in a strange way. Met a friend from a past life while having lunch with my family. It was interesting as it took a split second before recognition. Not sure why I am affected. Perhaps because it was a little awkward, perhaps because I could be having a kid. (HAH) or perhaps i miss the me of yesterdays...

Whatever happened to the once-upon-a-time innocence, sweet young thing... I remember the day i made the decision, and remember being challenged as to what was more important to me....I remember telling the big creator my cares and parking my worries with him. Today, while feeling a little cognitive dissonance with the costs involved, I need to remember that my worries were unfounded. He is happy now and has what he always wanted. I need to remember that there is a faithful creator out there whose kingdom is like a pearl, and that all costs, is worth the amount.

I pray for continued courage to not look back at what ifs, and wonder about decisions made.. instead to focus on the present and the future, to remember that the creator makes everything beautiful in his time.