Thursday, December 17, 2009

Snow

Makes me smile.
Makes me remember that he is present.
Reminds me to be thankful
and that everything is in His time.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A child of God.

There is a sense that when I dont write, it does not exist and I am not commiting to a reality. Weird concept but true. My 3 months have slipped by quite quickly and on the 2nd January, I will go home.

The past weeks have been all very intense/bitter sweet. For once in a long time, work does not take center stage and I am trying out a new reality. I knew it was going to be tough. But not that tough. haha. BUt i am glad to be alive to tell of my tale.

Last week was exciting, i met 3 professors and had an interview. I am not sure about the interview or the 3 professors but I know things are moving... Some observations.

1) God's timing is definitely NOT mine. haha. Yes, its in the bible in many places how his ways are higher, how he is not slow in keeping his promises, how we will need to wait on God to renew our strength... But when it comes to practically doing it. So hard. So hard to trust that he knows best what works/does not work.I am reminded to put my trust and I have learnt that when I am in the place of broken humility, when I am no longer striving deep inside but surrended (resigned to His Will), thats when he comes through for me... I need to remember this so that when this comes again, I will be quicker to surrender and not take too long to fret.

2) "Lord I believe, pls help my unbelief". The issue of doubt/faith/questions... I like the Centurion. He is easy to relate to. He is real. He wants to believe, but its such a difficult thing to do so.. So much easier to stress and give myself to worry. So much harder to cast this worry on Him... But yes. I am reminded that ultimately, I will need to believe him. and while it is humanly impossible. I am His and he will help me with this step.

3) He is the God of the whole universe.. and he is my Father! :) While my family can be all over the globe, I know that God sees us all simultaneously. The idea that he is watching my back even when I am here calms me down a little. When ppl are not being the friendliest, to know that My God is "Bigger" than them that calms me down. :)

4) little nuggets of love. I like how he appeared to Ezekial (spelling) in the wind, the soft wind. Reminds me that while the saying goes "the devil is in the details", God is also there. Saw snowflakes last weekend and was in awe that God bothered with designing snowflakes. Was feeling weird and was reminded that "Jesus loves me this I know". I need to learn to do better a job at counting my blessings and naming them 1 by 1!

ok, this is it for now. Will keep my fingers crossed and see how things go. It is well, with my soul!

Yay its Christmas.

Thursday, December 03, 2009

He Knows My Name - Tommy Walker

Listening to this on repeat is good for the soul..

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

a promise.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called, those he called, he also justified, those he justified, he also glorified.


Romans 8:28