Tuesday, October 28, 2008

M on a row...

Hahaha. yes. i caved in and have facebook! DOTS! anyway. my favorite find so far...Haha. :)

Looking serious. I like this photo.

Let's play. This is like me telling my Dad i will study for my next stuff toy from the next university!

Monday, October 27, 2008

my immediate therapy..(happy girl)

Came into the room and guess wad i saw on my bed..

















haha, i was super excited. I have no camera. So this is a foto from the lousy webcam picture. I am a happy girl. hehehe. Thank you my sweet. Much much appreciatied. The flowers came with a handwritten card with a message from my frog but handwriting of someone who writes alphabets like Thai. hee. funny. i feel like i have a secret admirer!

Finding the good in people

I always tell others that I must find the good in people to be able to work with them. I am one of those super Asian that needs to have a relationship with you to make things happen.

Yes. a little dots... So. because of that. I cannot deal with people who stick to the books very well. I dont like people who are not nice and find it hard to deal with them.:(

So angry to have to draw a line with people. I am the sort of person that likes to love wholeheartedly. even for my work...so to feel like i have to put a boundary between us both. I feel like I have failed and have to write you off. :(

Dear Lord, What to do???

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Transient Realities

Hello from Bangkok! :) Haha, yes, i think it is also quite hard to keep up with me. My friend has just left after spending the weekend from me. That was nice. We went shopping together and photos are with her. But I will try to ask for it online...

I hope everybody is fine and I wonder if people still read this blog. Hmmm. Anyway, the changin of blogskin cos i was a little bored of my old one. I blamed the skin for my inability to blog.. haha.

So since last update of life. Heaps have happened. Went to the UK, to frog land, frog came and visit. After that, I was whisked to Bangkok where I am currently in. haha. Sometimes, I can't even keep up with my own life. I think in a few months/years time, I will see the impact these travel has on me.. I think that this travelling however makes one more aware that time is ticking and that u can never take back the part of life that has gone by.

UK. UK was quite nice. I went to the country side for a conference attended by about 50 plus nationalities and i really did enjoy myself. I first went feeling little weary and tired but during the course of the week,the fresh air, the classes and the time shared was really useful. I felt more alive again and it was good to meet people passionate in the cause based in different countries. Bosnia, Georgia, Ethopia, Gabon, Bangladesh,Lebanon. I really do enjoy meeting people of different nationalities. same same but different. I also had a coach that talked to me about life experiences and helped me process the different work - related thoughts that were in my mind in a safe way

(Taken on my walk from the first day, was told the difference between Barley and Wheat. The lady that told us was ultra serious!.. dont ask me the difference. I forgot... )
(My best friend in the summer school.Well, one of them. She is from Myanmar and if I think my work is tough, she is having it a lot harder!!! I thank God for meeting people who are capable and compassionate in their own right!.. May God be the God of our circumstances) (I like this photo. It is taken in Cambridge. I love skies. I remember that God is good. The word is there as I had initially wanted to use this on my blog. But since I ended up not doing so.. Will post it in this post.)

After the summer school, my dearest came to visit me for my tour of London. Haha. I must say I am not a great fan of London. I think it was just the places we visited. The regular touristy sites... Too many people and I was totally sick of English food by that time. haha. i get German, Korean, French, Japanese, Chinese, Thai food... but not English. Its weird. a wrap with a pate and some cold salad and some old stuff. I dun get it. I like their Sunday roast but not normal daily food. It's weird, not yumy and very very expensive... Hmmm, maybe i just did not pay enough to eat decent. But the regular food was not the nicest treat..haha. I guess one of my favorite moments was seeing this...

I love Rainbows. It's another symbol that reminds me that God is real and he has time for frivolous surprises. Not something completely useful for pretty nevertheless. :)

Another highlight was catching up with Major Andrew. It was great. He is ever the positive pragmatist. A picture as evidence! He wanted to prove that he has grown and that Englishmen were really quite tall! He is great, I told him frog was coming and within 5 secs of seeing frog, he was like he's German! hahaha :) so funny.
After London, we went over to Bath. Bath was modeled after the Roman style and I figured that I liked it perhaps becos it was what Tuscany would look like in my mind. hehe. I dont know. But it was very pretty. The only down side to that was I was DRIVING! haha. i never thought my driving skills were particularly horrible. But put a girl in a manual girl (last time in manual girl probably during her driving test) with roundabouts out of nowhere and slopes that causes her to start and stop. It is very stressful for both her passenger and her. Haha. To give my passenger credit, he tried very hard to be supportive before becoming annoyed at her inadeptness.

Anyway. we got back alive to tell the tale. So cant be too bad. One classic driving moments was probably on our last night before flying back to Germany, we were looking for a place, originaly thinking it was "tye green", we went to a petrol kiosk and took a small photo of it from the map...(we felt very smart when we came up with this idea fyi.. hehe) When it was completly dark, we were still looking for this B&B in "tye green" but could not find it.. Boo. At 10pm, when we were all ready to give up, darling looked at his paper again and realised it was "Green tye" DOH! haha, we went to take another foto of the map and found our way there. I was super scared whenever he went out and I realised that i will make a useless country girl. Whenever there were no lights. I would freak out totally and not allow him away from sight. He thought I was mad. hehehe. Anyway, there is probably our most drama events.. Ok, fotos of Bath and stone henge! :) Pardon the summer messy hair and the goofy smile. This is outside a place that Jane Austen once rented. Darling went with me for a little tour of what her house would look like. After understanding her life a little more, her novels become a little more precious and insightful!:) All lovely...

Crazy wind. haha. Stone henge. It was nice but crazy weather... :)

So this is UK by and Large. After this, I flew to Germany for few more days to be with Darling and also to look at what "options" there might be there for me. I decided that I will be super lousy kitchen help so need something o do that can fit! Still praying for God to open the right doors...

More thoughts but thought I would start with photos again to get the blog again.

Good night, God bless and see u in Singapore soon! :)

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

In contemplation of time...

It is the time you have wasted for your rose
that makes your rose so important.
- Antoine de St. Exupery, The Little Prince

Look well to this day. Yesterday is but a dream and tomorrow
is only a vision. But today well lived makes every yesterday a
dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well therefore to this day.
- Francis Gray

Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils.
- Hector Louis Berlioz

These roses under my window make no reference to former roses or
to better ones; they are for what they are; they exist with God today.
There is no time for them. There is simply the rose; it is perfect in
every moment of its existence. But man postpones or remembers;
he does not live in the present, but with reverted eye laments the past,
or heedless of the riches that surround him, stands
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

In eternity there is indeed something true and sublime.
But all these times and places and occasions are now
and here. God himself culminates in the present
moment, and will never be more divine in the
lapse of all the ages.
- Henry David Thoreau, Walden